A good day to all of my readers, and hopefully a good night coming up. We have a full moon arriving today, and we also have a new month coming. It’s the month for love and all things pink and red. We have a great opportunity to love on our friends and our family around us, and what a great opportunity it is. You know the songs that say all you need is love, love is all you need. I would want to say I agree, but that love should not be put into a box or defined by only one relationship. Love exists all around us in forms of friendship, relationships, partnerships, families, with the food that we love, the weather that we love, the sports that we love. It’s all around us. I think that we should all be grateful for all of the love that we have, not for the love that we lack.

I think that if we were to sit down and make a list of all the things that we have loved, all the things that we currently love, and the things that we wish to love, we would realize we are all more blessed than we know, than we previously understood. I think it would do us all some good. I think we should always seek to find more things to love and to try to love the people and things around us. Sometimes love calls for change, and change does not always come easy. But when we place that love onto ourselves and we give ourselves a chance, when we listen to what our heart is saying, we realize that in the quiet and in the solitude of our thoughts, maybe we are blocking ourselves off from the opportunity to find love, to be loved, and to love. I’m not here to cast judgment because I, too, am guilty. I am only here to use my words and to follow my own words in action. I try every day to be grateful. I try every day to choose gratitude and to choose love, love for others and love for myself. Sometimes I find it easy; other times it is one of the hardest things I have experienced. It leaves me confused and at my wits’ end.

I want to reach out to others, to make amends, to find resolutions, to find solutions for moving forward. But I find that in myself, I am not ready. Now I have the great job of figuring it out, figuring out if that is because I love myself or if it’s the lack of love that keeps me silent. I know within myself that I would be willing to find resolutions with others that I find myself unwilling to offer to myself. I understand that others have limitations, ones that they may not be able to walk through or push past.

The limitations of others should not and will not dictate how I love myself. However, they may impact how I love the world around me, but never how I love or show love for myself. Not now, not ever again. And that’s what this month means to me. I will never put myself in a situation again where I love myself less to love others more. I used to think it was biblical to do so- to die to self – but I think I am learning that I also need to love myself because I am worth loving. Moreover, I am worth being loved well, and correctly at that.

So, happy February, you guys. Don’t forget to send a little love my way.